Invaded...

Feeling fiery inside... I am the eldest child and yet treated with respect of the youngest: totally no respect... I pay for my computer, the net line and my own fone bill... I feel that I am being sensible enough to work and study at the same time... Yeah, I am noisy and I like to kao peh kao bu... I like to talk loudly and rudely... Oh, you are an angel then... You dare to talk back to our father no holds bar... I am the younger brother, not the elder brother... I am someone for you to kp everyday... No wonder, I rather stay out late than go back home... Go home to my computer but tio kp for asking to use it... I asked and said that I want to use it after I come out from my bath and she said 'I havent finish using.' I don't mind that but her tone was definitely not acceptable for an elder... What the FUCK!

I think I will need to work during the holidays to make sure I got money to build another computer bah... Haiz... The new one I place in my room loh... Then use broadband in my room and 56k for the one in the living room loh... She likes to take things for granted then let her be loh... Internet no need pay 1 mah... Digital camera ask her to pay $120 then she kpkb... Now have to throw the money in her face to keep her mouth shut... Yeah, I am not like Eunice somehow... I envy the authority that she have over her silbings... Too bad I don't so I will juz shut the computer down? Haiz... Fan nuo and more fan nuo... Even my den she oso invade liao le... Have to move my things from my den to my domicile liao... My den is my study, my domicile is my room... Both are practically my world... Spend most of my time in the study but now cannot liao...

I requested for her to clear up her stuff after she left to let me take over the computer but she left her jacket on my armchair, left her mug on the coaster and some discount coupon on the keyboard... Result? I got blasted for being noisy... I got blasted by my mother too... As for my father, thank the horoscopes that he's not in else I will be blasted by him too... Where does that lead to? Another slap bah... My father is down right biased so no point talking reason... What I say is rubbish 1 lah... My area's cleaning of coz should be done by me mah... Who else's gotta do it if not me... I juz move all and I mean all my stuff in my computer area to my room liao... Invasion completed for her... She wants the area then take it loh... I got no say 1 mah... I am the clown in the court, the slave in the household, the one who get bullied easily... No point in fighting for rights or respect that slaves are not entitled to coz slaves have no rights or respect...

Enslaved for life, tortured mentally, strained physically... Is that all to my life? Haiz...

Work...

A few days neber blog liao coz feeling a bit slack so rot and rot loh... Simply lazy to blog bah... Holidays' coming liao but more like a study week to me coz I need to study and do my assignments. Yesterday went to Starry Starry Night semi finals but Lisasr and ZhiCheng did not get through... But nvm lah... Lisar got through with Helen and Debbie... hahaha... They sang till the judges oso high liao... Got time then get Lisar go KTV... ^_^"

Tue went to meet Eggie after sch and ponned NMA lessons... Then she told me she's attached liao... hahaha! A bit shocking coz I was drinking... Heng I neber choke... hahaha! She chose the unlikely guy of her numerous suitors... But it's Eggie mah... Always weird weird 1... hahaha... Had a fun day with Eggie but ended up with my legs aching again... ^_^" hahaha... I went to sprint on the sch track for 200m then lidat liao... A bit over strain bah... Since I super long time neber run liao le...

Juz received a warning letter for DEUI... Sianz... I hate letters coz my parents are down right ridiculous, they called teachers to find out what happened then I Game Over liao le loh... Where got parents nowadays still call teachers 1? Kaoz sia... Today lessons start at 1pm so will go then I have project meeting after that...

Jackpot!

Won all 3 matches last nite and won 40 bucks... Then spent 5 bucks on lunch and then rest invest in matches for tonite... If win then good loh... Use SG Pools' money to win more money else I still won 5 bucks... hahaha! Chatted with Pei^2 till veri late last nite coz we exchanging pointers in design... Basically is a bit crappy... hahaha... Btw, Pei^2 is my cousin lah... Her name is PeiPei so I always type Pei^2 loh... easier to type... hahaha...

Today neber go out with WanYi coz she kena rashes from too much alcohol? ^_^" She oso dumb loh... Got allergy still go take alcohol... Don't know is neber die b4 or wat... One of my fren oso got allergy to alcohol then doc say if drink too much will die 1... I was like 'huh?' when she told me that... ^_^" So allergy can be veri jialat... Eggie arh, pls don't play play leh... ^_^" Later become Humdy Dumpy... All the King's horses and men oso cannot help her liao... hahaha... ;p

Phew...

[21:35] * Joins: eUn|cE^-^ (eunice@fi-tnt06916.zapsurf.com.sg)

She came back and phew... finally with lotsa my sweat and likes... ^_^" Juz feeling like saying it here so I come to blog loh... Now is halftime of Chelsea vs Arsenal with Arsenal leading 2 - 1... hahaha! Hope the gunners will win! ^_^" Then I oso will win $$$? hahaha! Haiz... A bit like wasted the day coz still doing my web design job... too little time but too many things to do... omg! Somemore I picking up the habit to take weird and short naps... Sleep at 9+ and wake at 11+ then go use my computer till dont know what time... omg! hahaha!

Kimage...

Juz came back from outside... Went Kimage to cut my hair... It's really good to have a Kimage near my house sia... hahaha... New hair style a bit not used to it coz it's a bit hip for me? hahaha! At least look weird weird lidat leh... hahaha... After that went to buy Strike! Hope I lucky lucky can win money... ^_^" When I came out of the betting outlet, I bumped into my grandma... so qiao~!~ She juz called us this morning onli somemore...

Headache...

Not much to write her today... Now a bit headache... Going to pass computer to my sis liao le... Going to sleep earlier today bah... Sianz... Next Sat going out with Tingz to watch movie and pass her this and that... hahaha... Sun most prob going out with WanYi to pei her go interview for her job... ^_^" Maybe tml will start on my new webbie design liao le...

Stay tuned to the world of ORiNity... ^_^V

Slack?

Kinda slack today coz I ponned the whole day away... Reached school then go find CK and Jimmy at SPGG again but today no form at all... Eh... I juz felt something in my mouth then go and touch it... ^_^" I think my wisdom teeth are growing liao... omg! Last nite slept veri late coz I took a nap at 8+ then woke up onli at 11.30 lidat... hahaha!

Actually is woke by my 6100 coz Eunice called then I realised that she sent me 2 sms while I was sleeping... Then I called he on her hp loh... Talked a bit then put down liao... Can hear that she's down... Really down... Went club today she still okay okay but think it's a mask after all loh...

Went to A Do's school concert then went school liao le... Kinda feeling kinda shagged... ^_^"

Damn it loh...

Ponned quite a bit of my lessons today then reached school at around 2.30pm... Went to SPGG to find CK and Jimmy and played a set with them... Broke my record with 147... ^_^" Kinda a bit hot and fiery at the moment so come in to blog a bit coz this place is one of the places to cool down and sort my thoughts out. Unlike in the past, last time this place was the place where I shouted and screamed without any restrictions but now I prefer to think things through here instead... Went for my Internet Marketing prac but end up being a useless prac lesson coz lecturer was briefing us on Case Study 2 and commenting about the Case Study 1 that we handed up. Bumped into HuiZhen on Dover MRT platform then went home with her loh... We went to eat Mee Pok at 900+ there... hahaha! She told me that she gotta fail her test liao le... hahaha! Not again? hahaha... kk lah... I think no one can slack like me and still pass with decent enough grades? hahaha!

Tried to talk to Eunice a while ago on IRC... Actually is more like trying to get her to join my channel again loh... Then YouWei pte msg me not to msg her. I asked why and he said juz don't... He said that she's veri fan now so I asked him to pass her this message, 'so i am juz a vcd borrowing shop then? cannot talk, cannot communicate, cannot say anything except for borrowing of vcds?'. I know it's kinda fierce but was a bit sparked off... My fault there liao... Didn't managed to control my temper... Seem like I can't control my temper well online... Then YouWei oso like pissed oso but I see his away msg keep popping up then I oso a bit pissed liao le...

*** HiSaShI^M Is Away: i WiLl bE WaItInG 4 u EvEn u DuN aCcEpT Mi nOw...I wIlL WaIt 4 tHaT DaY 2 cUm

Not that I agree or don't agree with the sentence or what lah but more of him being illogical bah... Coz like whenever he fell in love, he oso say that sort of things leh... A bit unrealistic liao le loh... If ZhiHao is the one saying that, I sure believe coz he did mean it? ^_^" Wait for that day to come? Like heard b4 liao but always different gal? Aiya... Maybe it's my jealousy acting up bah... Kinda feel that he always set messages as though he is some victim of some ai qing da bei ju... Juz my personal opinion of him sometimes bah... He's a great guy but come to love affairs he's a bit lidat leh... Don't know why oso... Why he always down over such matters 1? Somemore he can be down for so long... I thought I was long enough till I met him? hahaha... Maybe that takes some time bah...

Juz remembered the wish for this year's bday... I think you guys can guess once I drop this clue... That's to get back the close fren I lost... I think you guys know who is it liao le bah... ^_^" My clique going KTV today but I opted out coz went too often and spent lots of money liao le... Time to save up le bah? Somemore my sis, HuiZhen, JingYing and Eunice all around the same period bday... I sure need quite a sum to treat them mah... hehe... This Sat maybe meeting ShuTing, ChenLing or WanYi... Havent confirm who I meeting yet, may even be staying at home instead... hahaha... Meeting WanYi is to pei her go interview then ShuTing is to take my present and give her hers and ChenLing is for going out onli loh... ^_^" See who can confirm 1st then I decide loh but maybe going out with WanYi seem more realistic bah coz she's quite fan these days... Go cheer her up oso not bad mah... Cheering pple up is part of going out with me? hahaha! Coz I always veri lame... The onli time my lameness is all gonez is when I walk beside XiuWei loh... Coz she's quite a serious gal... Then I like tongue tied and don't know what to say to her... hahaha!

Going to try to do my SDT Scope Draft liao le... Maybe going to update my gallery later bah... ^_^"

Cyrene's Bday...

Now is Cyrene's Bday... She's my biao jie but more like my biao mei... hahaha! Coz cannot depend on her 1... Today working at Cravings then kena influenced by HuiZhen, JingYing and WanYi's studious spirit so decided to take off nxt Sun to study a bit... hahaha! Maybe need to tidy my room a bit oso... ^_^" Saw Angelia when I about to take the money in to cash in... So late she still loitering around... She say she nxt day 9am lessons then I was like 'Kaoz!'... After that I went in to cash in the sales then bumped into my NPCC squadmate, MeiXing... I think that's here name lah... A bit vague liao le... coz it's been so long liao... She say she's working at Taka since Dec liao but din see her there till now. She say she got see me but thought I neber work there liao coz I like only come work once in a while mah... ^_^" It brings back all the memories of NPCC... So huai nian...

WanYi keep saying she veri fan then last nite went mad after I mentioned some wrong things... Then I went to take cover liao... hehe... She's alright liao... Too much exam stress bah... Always lidat... She's stressed out over her tests... This week think I don't pon so much... Maybe play less games as well... Focus on my studies more? ^_^"

Valentine's Day!

Yesterday went to KTV after school with my clique lah... Then oso got Fatty's boss, Jaclyn... Don't know if I spelled correctly anot... hahaha... Coz it's my first time knowing her mah... hahaha... We K songs till 12 midnite then came out... Then I went to eat with CK and Newbie while Jacl and Jimmy go wait for their last bus... Fatty went off at 11.30 lidat coz he want to catch the last bus oso... After that I walked with Newbie to Clarke Quay to take NR buses home... hahaha... Then Newbie's aura took effect... He always veri sua then his bus came and he about to wait for door to open... But the bus juz drive off! hahaha! Then my bus came not long after then I went home liao... ^_^"

Reached home around 2am... Today went back that KTV again but with my club people... Helen say she want flowers so I go cut a Hibicus from the CC downstairs... hahaha! But I no skill so the flower like become weak weak lidat... hahaha! Then at KTV, Chin Sun keep holding on to the mike so I a bit sianz½... Coz 1 whole group then he keep singing and singing... Even my songs he oso sing... Sianz... He's worse than YongJun... YongJun don't hold that long though he a bit off key 1... hahaha... Tml still have to work so maybe will have an early nite or wat loh... ^_^"

Great Birthday!

My late year as a 10+, my last year as a teen like what my little cousin PeiPei said... Still my greatest birthday to date... Got so many frenz to pass this day with me, got the most presents to date and so many blessings from so many frenz... Thanks everyone! Lets go through this great happy date in details bah!

Received a SMS from WanYi at midnight... She's the first... hahaha... Followed by XiuWei & JingYing later on... Then I went to sleep not long after that... Woke up rather early coz I slept rather early oso... Installed a game to play then I went to sch for lessons... It turned out that I see my timetable wrongly so I missed my 1pm tutorial... ^_^"

When I went into the LT, I got my presents... There's quite a few of them loh... I got a dog indeed... hahaha... A small cute doggie that they gave me... ^_^" Then got the LOTR's The One Ring! I like that a lot... Then got a sling bag and a puppy birthday card... 1st time to get so many birthday presents... ^_^"

During lecture received several SMSes from a few people... Helen, AiJia and Eunice... The last one really surprised coz I know she still a bit can't accept the way I acted and think a while back... ^_^" I replied her but she did not replied back... After lecture I went BA to get my present which is a white Hush Puppies polo shirt... It's quite nice... Dogs again... hahaha...

Went to club after that then saw Helen, Selina, JunTing, Rebecca and Andrea... Thanked Helen for her present... She shared with AiJia 1... Then shaked everyone's hand... On my way back to meet the rest at the LT, I bumped into Eunice... So Qiao... I reacted first... Waved to her... Though my movements like a bit stone stone lidat lah... Coz everytime see her, my heart like speed up, my tongue a bit tied and a bit stone stone and slow... Anyway, she said happy birthday to me and shaked my hand... First contact since I made her mad? hehe...

Then meet the others in the LT then they were playing Zhong Ji Mi Ma... hahaha! Very fun coz the loser will be drawn on the arm by the one giving the number then the person will become the next to give the number... We waited till Fatty got released then went my house... My mother got the steamboat ready by then liao... I think my gang of frenz getting closer and closer together liao le... Maybe can organize chalet during holidays? Juz an idea only lah... Then these few weeks so happening coz every week got pple birthday so like always thinking of things to buy to surprise the person... I got surprised though... hahaha!

They even bought me a cake which is like don't know how long ago since I got a cake liao le... hahaha! Then I went down collect my present from HuiZhen... Too bad she don't want to come up... She gave me a Aquarius mug... I like that a lot sia... She oso know me well... hahaha! ^_^" I think I am a bit high liao le... hahaha!

Juz checked my mail and received e cards from XiuWei and Stacey... hahaha! Both still so fun loving...

All the blessings, presents, heart felt wishes... Thanks!!!

Happy Birthday to Me~!~

hehe... It's my bday liao le... I am 19! hahaha... Later going lessons earlier today to pick up my present from HuiZhen then go meet AiJia... I think oso is present bah... hahaha... Today inviting my classmates to my house for steamboat... ^_^" WanYi was the 1st to wish me happy birthday and also the only one who don't need me to remind? hahaha... Win liao rite? hahaha... Overall the eve of my bday is rather happy... My thoughts a bit think too much but I think today I post only good things lah... Bad things wait for tml to post...

Today finally going to find out what sort of present my classmates bought for me though I still dont believe it's a real puppy but I secretly hope that it will be... hahaha~!~ Going to play a bit of game liao... Gonez...

Lin JunJie...

Hightlight of the day... Helen and Lisar say my voice sound a bit like Lin JunJie... hahaha~!~ So happy after that... ^_^" But I was learning Huang Hun and Ji Shi Ben leh, not Dong Jie and Hui You Na Yi Tian... But I oso quite happy that I can sing JJ's songs well liao... At least not too bad lah... Didn't spoil the songs like I expected... Some of the rest came to find us after their dinner then they laming there liao le... hahaha... Then they say that YongJun and me veri harmonious... hahaha... too much praise for me today liao... hahaha...

Forgot to add that I broke my watch today... The only sad thing today bah... ^_^" It's been on my wrist since sec3 liao le... Kinda sad to broke the strap... Hope can get it repaired... ^_^"

Then PayWen said that they bought a puppy for me which I don't really believe... Kinda fake fake lidat leh... But they got the heart veri nice of them liao le lah... My mother say she can cook for us on Thurs so I can invite them over for steamboat... If the present is really a doggie then I will be super happy loh... hahaha...

Signing off for tonite...

Opps... Haiz... My fault again...

Haiz... Juz now joked that I want to pass my flu to WanYi then she broke down liao... She quite stressed these couple of days... So small a body, seem so fragile, seem so weak... Think she's a stressed up liao le lah... Forgot that she's stressed and all that... Haiz... Pissed her off quite a bit but managed to calm her down a bit liao... Once she got filled up again, she will cry again... Haiz... All my fault lah... made her even more stressed up... nearly made her cry... Haiz... She seem so fragile... Such a mature gal trapped inside such a fragile body... Haiz... Someetimes I really pity her, she want to do so much with so little time while pple like me got so much time and do so little... Kinda guilty... How I wish that I can turn back time for her so she can catch her breath...

Today reached home early but mainly is bad things that happened to people and they come find me for advice all that lah... WeiPing's having some problems with Lester and she suspected that Eunice's the one. Told me some stuff that I don't think I should say here... Can only let Eunice know these things... It concerns her after all mah...

Tml most prob going KTV with Helen, Selina, Stacey and Lisar... They going KTV to prac for their talentine... ^_^" Then JingYing pang seh me for wed liao le... but nvm lah... dunno how many times she pang seh me liao le... hahaha... Lost counts liao le...

Be strong. Be calm. Be patient.
The worst will be over soon...
I will shelter u from the storm...
Do not be scared. Do not be afraid. Do not cry.
I will be with u through the storm...
- ORiN of Evaria

Phew...

I sold my old DDR333 RAMs on sat and bought a pair of DDR400 RAMs but they end up spolit. Waste a lot of my time and in the end cannot start up my rig to do my powerpoint presentation. ^_^" Today went to xchange but the Fuwell tech damn fucked up, he can load windows using the RAMs then he thinks the RAMs alright liao arh? I tried to run Memtest86 and got a load of errors... End up the sales guy say maybe my Abit motherboard not very compatiable with TwinMOS so I top him 38 bucks for Kingston RAMs instead loh... Waste of money... WTH... But once slotted in, no problem at all... hehe...

Yerterday went to work at Cravings... Then somehow I this weekend used handphone to chat a lot... Chatted with JingYing and HuiZhen on the fone... hahaha... Meeting JingYing on Wed though... Going to help her scan the t-shirt design for a event... ^_^" My workplace there really a lot of chio bu... YuTing and that another gal same age as me... hahaha... Both of them so cute... ^_^"

Gotta go else sure late for sch... but I always late 1 lah...

Finally...

Finally handed in the DEUI and IMKT case studies... phew~!~ Juz uploaded my gallery... Password is theorin... ^_^" Visit it often loh... coz nowadays I got a lot of pics to add... Nothing to do then I start taking pics liao le... ^_^" Took quite a while to edit and find a good host and hope you guys like it... Some are pics of sky that I find interesting...

Today Dominic got pissed off with the CRS lecturer who gave us attitude... ^_^||| She lame 1 loh... Wrong oso dont dare to admit but class rep oso got wrong lah... He didn't pass down instructions properly... hahaha~!~ Dominic say he first time got pissed off since he entered poly... The lecturer really power loh...

Tml I going my uncle's company to work and check on their system... The manager said got some problems... Waking up at 9am... sianz... off to bed... ^_^V

Slackazation...

Slack, slack and slack... hahaha... Now doing my DEUI project... Btw, DEUI stands for Design for User Interface... ^_^" I doing the compilation and editing of the whole report. So far it is 8 pages liao le... Then still got 2 bigger parts that I havent added in yet... Dominic requested stunts so I am still brain storming for some new, unique, rare and superb ideas for my recommendations... It's my speciality when doing projects leh... I always choose to be editor and compiler... Then I oso choose to be do recommendations for the reports...

Going to pon both my lectures today... Going to go for my SDT prac at 4pm... Sianz... I don't like that lecturer loh... Look so ancient and so naggy... She treats us like kids... OMG! I hate that the most... I prefer lecturers that sees us as equals and friendly towards us and believe in our ability to do the things he/she assigned us. Juz leave the comments till when we ask him/her to review our project or wat lah... One good example is Mr Clarence and Miss HoFM... They rocks loh... Maybe Miss Ho said a bit too much of 'Very worrying' liao le loh... Maybe Clarence a bit biased against other groups so treat my group super good coz he thinks highly of us... hahaha!

That's all for now... Think I going to ask ZhiCheng out for KTV someday since he going to prac for talentine... hahaha! Back to projects! ^_^"

爱的痛了　痛的哭了　哭的累了　矛盾心里总是强求...
劝自己要放手　闭上眼让你走　烧掉日记重新来过...

Shi Bu Shi...

Went KTV with my clique, PayWen, LiZhuang and MeiFang coz today's PayWen's bday... Think when I free then I post the pics up for u guys to see bah... We bought her a Panasonic discman, she wanted it for a long time liao le... ^_^" Then I flu still go sing... hahaha... Think I am a bit mad liao le, should take care of myself more but I want to have fun with them and I partly organized the thigny 1 leh... How can I not go? ^_^"

Today can't seem to hit the higher notes coz of my flu loh but hear PayWen and LiZhuang they all sing, I was like 'Wow!'... They sing very well loh... Even MeiFang oso sing not bad... We guys like sianz½ coz they too good liao le... hahaha... Then we there lame... They start calling me Jay Sim... hahaha! Lame loh coz I not good at Jay's songs leh... I better at Mayday's Chun Zhen... I trying to learn Zhou Chuan Xiong's Huang Hun and Ji Shi Ben...

I will be moving this blog once I have the time to do it so pls bear with it guys... The new site will be my own domain... JunTing suggested that I use www.lumix.com or www.aurasia.com though I quite like www.evaria.com... I think I will try to gather more suggestions from you guys 1st bah...

hahaha... PayWen juz said that my singing not bad... hahaha! sbs I now veri happy? hahaha...

ORiN is bottomless pit for all sadness, tears and grieve...
-ORiN

Evaria...

Evaria... It's the name for my domain that I thought up when I was out in town with WanYi. Spent sometime with her chit chatting and wandering around Orchard area... The sky is rather cloudy tonite so cannot take pic of a starry starry night with LC33. Looks like Francis is a popular option for secret keeping and consoling... ^_^" So cannot blame me if I got that stressed look on my face... ^_^" Havent empty them onto the stars yet mah... Even the usually lark like dumbdumb|Yc oso sad sad today... Haiz... Chirpy WanYi oso lidat... Haiz Haiz Haiz... Somemore she's such a good, nice and close fren of mine... Someone I know will be there when I can't stand up on my own... How come a small gal like her can help me stand up back? Don't ask me, the stars dont even know why bah... Coz we kinda depends on each other for ears when we are down? ^_^"

Don't see her often but yet she's one of my closest fren... Rare rite? I suddenly feel that I grow up liao le... Especially after what happened with Eunice... Sometimes things can't be forced... If she wants me to fade out from her life, I will do that... Coz I am Francis... I dont have much purpose in life but to keep people happy... ^_^" Like ZhenFu, I juz hope that she can understand and forgive me 1 day bah... All I can let her know is that I grow up liao! ^_^V

People grow through their experiences in life and me included... This time I learn to not think too much and not to expect too much as well... Maybe I should remain like I was before, give and dont expect any return... Expecting any return is like I am expecting payment for something I have done as a fren, someone who likes that person, someone who carez... Thinking too much maybe not be what others may be thinking... ^_^"

Back to being a quiet Francis who's there observing, looking, seeing, hearing... Ready to help anytime... My bottomless pit for all sadness, tears and grieve is open for all... ^_^"

Dreamz & Starz...

DMC-LC33...

Juz bought my digital camera... It's a Panasonic brand... Got recommendations from HWZoners... Playing around with it... Think I will be bringing it to sch everyday liao le... ^_^" Finished my Chrno Crusade so now have to wait for Ep10 to come out... Damn it, I hate waiting... Got some inspiration from ZhenHui's irc quit message... 'If you truely love a person, you would want her to be happy, even if it means you vanish from her life'...

Facing reality may not always to be way to go... I prefer to dreamz...

Heard...

Juz heard from WeiPing about YouWei and Eunice... Seems like YouWei finally fell in love with Eunice liao... He kena rejected coz she feels that YouWei is using her to get over Dinah... Looks like Eunice will be stressed over these few days liao le... Going back to my Chro Crusade liao... Got things to write here but don't know how to put it... My heart is kind heavy now...

Real heavy... Like a rock on top of it...