Jialat Lah...

Sianz... Eunice still ignoring me... Maybe need to apologise to her in person then can... Haiz... Sent her sorry sms twice oso no reply from her... Call her oso neber answer my call... This time jialat liao le lah... Andrea say neber see her angry lidat b4 so think I limit break her liao le... ^_^" How how how? Hope I say sorry in person she will forgive me... Haiz...

Last night stayed over at my cousin's place then this morning go play bball with Andy and gang... Reached home only at 5pm I think... Maybe going to install my new hard drive and motherboard later... A bit shagged at the moment and juz bathed... I think I going to take a short nap after my hair dry bah... Sianz... Feeling kinda feverish now... Haiz...

Juz remembered that AiJia asked me who I like now when we were walking to Chimes on Christmas' Eve... Don't know how to answer her coz too many gals inside liao... A bit crowded but juz those few gals bah... No more liao le, I swear until I see another gal that I really like bah... ^_^" Hair almost dry liao le... 2004's coming and holidays is about to end soon oso... Enjoy this last week before school starts bah...

We dreamz to run away from reality but sometimes we juz have to face it...

Diao~!~

Keep it simple... Eunice pissed off with me over the previous post. Maybe I was too angry that night le bah... No wonder she dont want to reply my sms and kupped my calls. Haiz... Think she oso too stressed up by all the suaning by ZhiHao they all bah... Then me and my stupid faulty radar oso keep getting ku ku frequency... But what ZhiHao said really pissed me off... I don't know if he was refering to me anot but sounds like he was. I was like... 'Diao~!~' when he said that 'If it's the other guy, he would simply give up his seat to Selina coz I like the other guy more.' I know I din heard wrongly about that... Come on lah... If people lidat say you, oso will piss people off 1 mah... Somemore he said that in front of me... Once I heard that my fuse is lit liao... No more logical thinking le bah... That's why I punched SiHan in the face during Sec4 when he pushed me beyond my limit. Although I know he could KO me without much effort, I still punched him. I think all I can say to Eunice now is: SORRY GAL! It's my fault... ^_^" Forgive me... But I wonder if she will come my blog again anot liao... She sounded damn pissed off... Looks like I pushed her beyond her limit... Haiz...

Christmas' Eve went out with Helen, AiJia, ZhiCheng, ChinSan and YongJun they all. ChinSan brought along 2 of his secondary school frens who were oso classmates of Ah Boon. hahaha! So qiao... Then we went to eat at Breeks @ Taka after which we went out. This year Orchard is damn crazy. Everyone spraying the canned snow here and there. I oso kena a few times. Then we slowly walked to Chimes coz AiJia want to go meet YanMing but in the end the girls look too young so cannot go in. We went to Boat Quay instead. We ordered a jug of Vodka Lime for 80 bucks... What the hell... After that we went home liao... I went to take bus with ChinSan and his 2 gal frens. They oso live Yishun. Reached home around 4.30am... See my bed then I sleep all the way till 12 noon lidat.

Woke up with a bit of flu that went on till I bua tahan then go take a flu pill before I turned in for the day. Tml going to work at 8.30am, earliuer than the usual 9am although I always late 5 to 10 min... ^_^" Tml actually wanted to go help Selina paint her banner but got work so maybe at night go join them for dinner or what loh. Saw my timetable and I almost pengz... A bit better than last sem coz no more Sat lessons but almost everyday is 9 to 5 or 10 to 5... What the...

The tint of flu is still around so maybe sleeping earlier tonite bah... Gonez to Uranus...

Miss Me?

It's been 5 days since I posted but more or less busy catching up with frens or working. Went down to club on Sat to help Selina paint banners for her event. Went to meet Eunice 1st coz I asked her to pei me go eat. ;p Painted till rather late and only reached home at 10pm, I think... I only remembered one moment of the that vividly and maybe still thinking about it now bah... It's kinda... hahaha! Want to know then ask me loh... ;p

Went to meet ShuTing and gang around noon when they came to LiTeng's house that bball court to play bball. Cycled there to pass her the books she wanted to borrow from me. Then played bball with those gals loh. After that LingYue went home to wash up then we went to watch Return of the King but she was late so we have to catch the 8pm show instead of 4.50pm. Kaoz! Sent her home after that...

Juz received news that I have to work on Christmas coz the system in Singapore will be down so I can move some equipments to Malaysia for testing. Sianz sia... hahaha! Tml will be going to help Selina paint banner again... hahaha!

Going to bed...

Juz put down fone with Eunice and she gave me the lamest quote for quite some time. "Duck eggs are salted..." She know that salted eggs are duck eggs but thought that they are salted naturally. LAME! Past few days is simply work, work and work... During work is mainly coffee, coffee and more coffee. Henry's having his last day at the office this friday and that's the end of his free labour period. Btw, Henry's my cousin. Only know today that Eunice cried when I sing song but I still haven't figure out what song yet... ^_^" I think is Kai Bu Liao Kou or Ni Yao De Ai bah... Din know that I so power... hahaha!

Signing off... Kinda sleepy liao...

Back...

It's been a rather fun but quiet chalet. More or less spent the nitez with AiJia, my mummy, again. ^_^" Last year I spent the whole nitez at the beach with her at the Christmas chalet. Feeling a bit slack today but I have to start working on my work project later liao. Been watching Westside Story since I woke up... hahaha! Saw Eunice's message only this morning, maybe she did not expect that I fell asleep rather early... My sis was using the computer so I juz turn in earlier coz I am quite tired... Fone marathon followed by a chalet is demanding loh... hahaha!

After the chalet we went to Jurong Entertainment for lunch at my fav Chinese restuarant there... Then Eunice suggested that we go back to club and bath... hahaha! So, we went back to check on the other guys who were running Winter Paradise. ^_^" There were some hot news during the chalet. It's the usual fare of B, G and R... hahaha! and we got BGR thingys again... But this time I am not involved... hahaha! It's YouWei, Dinah and QianBao... Don't know why such things always happen but don't care lah... My dreamz is a jian dan ai so I juz heck care loh... hahaha! Eunice told me to take care of YouWei on our way home since we taking the same direction. I think I did well enough bah but he wasn't in the mood to talk or whatever... I juz left him in his self-pitying and bitterness... I have been through that before so I know that feeling although I don't self-pity anymore...

Dreams are perhaps just the alternative reality that we created to replace reality...

Another Record...

Clocked another record with Eunice again... and yawnz... hahaha! We chatted till 6am last nite... Another nite of 6 hrs of non-stop chattering. It's fun but a bit tiring but I think will juz go to sleep early. Tml going for the chalet liao but I think it is not as organized as last year's. We not even meeting up and going together... Zzz

Dreamzzz...

Dreamz...

Have no idea what title to set today so I juz set it as Dreamz... based on my recent ending quotes... ^_^" I am going into Malaysia for a while tml but will be back in a few hours. Today is almost turbo laughing at the office coz of Nicholas' antics. Henry and me almost constantly laughing like mad. So old like still so lame... hahaha! I got orders to complete one of my projects on hand by Monday morning by hook or by crook. Sianz...

Yesterday was a fun outing with Tingz and Yuez... So long din see Tingz liao and she's still so chio and cute... hahaha! Maybe juz a few more freckles that make her look more cute... ^_^" Talked crap all the way and both of them keep calling each other bimbo... hahaha! Tingz then say she wants to be a tai-tai and then say that I so flirt so I am a gong-gong... hahaha! After Esplanade, we went to eat at the Hagen-Das there... Had some ice-cream and Tingz did another stunt, she cracked the glass when digging at her ice-cream... hahaha! Yuez more or less still the same as last time but she wore her porm heels yesterday. She was walking so slowly the whole time... hahaha! We went to the Esplanade library before we had our ice-cream and she juz sat at a side listening to some celtic music that she started to grow some interest in sometime back, I think... So I juz chat with Tingz while she listen loh, we share the TNP and started arguing over the news again... That's why I like intellects, they make a good arguing partner... hahaha! She's smart but don't know why she started calling herself a bimbo after I slipped my mouth and called her bimbo once... hahaha!

tingz kept saying that she remembered me as a short short guy... Kaoz! When was I short? I was about her height by the time I Sec 3 liao... Coz tingz want to catch Star Awards so we went home rather early oso then we came to the height topic again... hahaha! She said that I was like a hobbit in Sec Sch then say now I am a human then I said 'Then next time I become Elf with pointed ears rite?'. She replied 'Then wo confirm jia gei ni' and got out of the train. I got no itme to tell her that I don't mind... hahaha! She was the girl that I got smitten over in sec sch after all mah... But now she got long hair then even more chio... hahaha!

ChenLing's kinda back to the gal that I know as Pinkie but I don't dare hope too much... Maybe what you gals said is right bah... Gals are sometimes lidat 1... hahaha! Juz let her be bah... I can only pray that Pinkie's back for good... ^_^" I hope Lord Aquarius hears me... hahaha! For those who don't know, I am a free thinker but I believe in the horoscopes. ^_^V So you can safely say that I believe that they are the ones watching over us bah... hahaha!

I got my pay today liao! $400... but straight away return my aunt $100 and left $300. Gave $50 to my mother for my debt to her and I still owe her $200. Left $250 which I going to deposit $200 into my bank acc so that I can pay my ku-kuly expensive net bill and my upcoming fone bill. Currently listening to Jay's songs and waiting for Eunice to call me. Don't say that I am chee hong coz I somehow juz don't trust guys as much except for Boonz and TzeYan bah... Both are my childhood pals whom I seriously trust and treat as my bros. Boonz is Ah Boon as I know him and he's considered as my only big bro who is my neighbour till I am 3. He's neightbour to my grandma so I still get to see him till my grandma moved out of that area but he oso moved to somewhere near my grandma. Got time then I will post up some baby and kid photos of him and me loh... We are a bit like George and Fred from Harry Potter... hahaha! We are the typical trouble makers in our neighbourhood whenever I go to my grandma's house and you will be able to see other neighbours pulling at their own hair... ^_^" I think that's enough of a little bit of my childhood bah...

Dreamers are born, not made...

Record...

Came back from the LTC outing last nite then went home with those juniors. They are couple couple or in the state of wooing the gal so left me nothing better to do. Called Eunice up and went on the crack a new record at 4am. 6 hours of non-stop chattering! hahaha! Not even WanYi and Lynn clocked that far. Lynn somemore is I talk most of the time then WanYi is usually about her school work 1... hahaha! Chatted till I high high liao... hahaha! She told me some of her secrets oso so now can say that I know both her and JingYing better liao le bah... Both oso told me secrets... She asked why she tell me so much but I think it's because I got that look or vocie to make people tell me things? hahaha!

Meeting ShuTing and LiangYue later for outing but not sure what to do later yet... hahaha! CSCC chalet is coming up, muz go hor... ^_^V

I did not sleep so I started dreaming again, or is this an illusion again?

At Home!

I am at home today while getting paid for a day of work... hahaha... Last night go eat dinner with my uncle, couzie and people from work. Btw, couzie stands for cousin.... ^_^" Talked to Dinah on the fone the night before and chatted till 1+am. hahaha! Know her a bit better or she sounds like Helen. Hahaha... As in sound like Helen before she becomes so 'Auntie'. I am kinda stunned by Chen Ling juz now when I said morningz to her after 3 days of not talking to her. She replied something like, "Morning... hey i will not be at my com... cya". I wonder if the tone is okay. I am over sensitive on such things so a bit ki siao lidat.

Tml going to my couzie's place for an extended family gathering! Hahaha... I finally figured out that I don't have to work on Saturdays... hahaha! I think I will be slacking around with Shuting and LiangYue on Sunday bah coz I am super duper broke. ^_^"

Asking me not to dream is the same as asking me not to sleep... ^_^"

Attitude!

Fucked up! Don't know what the hell is wrong with her loh... If don't want to have relationship problems then why don't you try killing eveyr guys you see. If being frens oso so hard, then might as well don't be liao... I am fed up with this cannot-face-reality childish attitude that your smart-alec fren think up for you. We like the ChenLing of the past, friendly and cheerful... Not the present see-you-then-kan-you... I try to be your friend but I don't think I am very good to you or whatever... I am juz being myself... So it's my fault for tryign to be a good fren and my fault for being good to all my frens... It's my fault then...

You make people unhappy and yourself unhappy by being that way... So please, give me back that cheerful you that everyone likes... I like you as a fren and I don't want to lose any friends at the moment... Can someone please tell me why she can't face up to reality?

Wen shi jian qing wei he wu, zhi jiao ren sheng si xiang xu... haiz... Xtreme Pek Chekness! Argh!!!

Trying...

Drank about 3 cups of coffee at work today juz to stay awake... hahaha... Coz last nite I was back to my usual time and slept 'early' again. Hahaha! Don't know what's actually wrong with ChenLing recently. I came back from camp and she's back to that cold cold self again... Haiz... Sometimes I wonder why my frens always so not yang guang 1... She's not even anywhere near that friendly gal that I got to know juz before my exams but I think that's it bah... We can only be hi-bye friends bah... It's all her fren's fault saying that she's too good to guys liao and now I feel like I lost a fren... K N N!

Today's problem is still staying awake... Which I struggled along all day with my brains working at low levels and no creativity juice flowing out of me at all... Don't even talk about cheekiness, even the quiet Dinah is more cheeky than me today... ^_^" I juz want to get my pay asap and foot that 120 bucks bill... Then I need to pay my aunt back her $115 and pay my mother back $200. There goes the money that I earned and I still got my fone bill that I have not received yet...

All I feel like saying now is 'Big Fuck!'. I am feeling lousy at the moment or at least my inner self is feeling lousy. I show my lousy feelings. I expressed them through words on irc or whatever. So the number of times that I get angry online is more than I get angry in reality coz I almost neber do that... Weird rite? Nvm... Aquarius are born odd balls... I am born an odd ball by being extraordinary skinny and ultra big mouth... I am trying to change and I am trying hard... I am trying not to fall in love with every gal everytime I changed a corner and I am trying not to open my fucking smelly mouth that often... When I try, no one sees it... When I slack off, everyone says I am not trying at all... So what's the big fuck about? I don't know...

Friends are a very important part of me although I still do okay without them around me but I supposed that I still need them... After that thingy with JunTing, I got WanYi around me... At least now I try not to fall in love with every gal I see when I turn a corner... hahaha... I am improving on it so cannot blame me mah... I am not going after ChenLing and I am not going after Dinah... That's what I am telling myself now... I am not going after ShuTing and LiangYue or anyone of my nu ers... I am not going after WanYi definitely... hahaha... Don't want to scare the hell outta her and don't want her to scare the hell outta me... hahaha! I don't want to go on dreaming about BGR thingys anymore liao bah... No more tears for now at least... ^_^V Lets hope I can keep that up... If I can survive 1 month of chatting with Dinah without jioing her out then I think I will be okay... hahaha!

I can't help dreaming but I am trying to stop dreaming...

Spring Cleaning...

Can't come up with a decent title for today's post... ^_^" I am slacking all day in my sofabed and in front of my computer. Reading my computer mag and drinking fruit juice while lazing around under the cool sky... Juz received my internet bill and I kena stunned... $120! What the... They charge me 2 months at 1 go! There goes my pay from the strudel shop liao...

Today kinda tidy up my den a bit by throwing away some old unwanted stacks of papers. Unpacked the rest of my camp stuffs and about to start sorting out my last semster stuff. I think I will be doing something about my hair soon bah, it is becoming long and messy... A bit like a bird's nest liao... hahaha! Then ChenLing like still not back to the 'talking terms' level again... Maybe that's the point of maintaining friendships or your friends will drift away? Suddenly I become so chim sia... hahaha... This sunday meeting ShuTing and LiangYue to slack. Super long time neber see ShuTing liao... Btw, she's one of the girls that got my smitten in sec sch... hahaha! The last time I saw her, she look like a butch... Maybe this sunday will be better since they both got a prom nite coming up next week... hahaha! Maybe coz I am working this holidays so harder to spend time with all my frens. Sch reopens then go catch up with them bah... Some going NS liao, some holidaying afetr their As, some study so far away from me so really hard meet up. ^_^" Cannot all blame me mah... Like WanYi always so busy 1, not I neber care but she's so far away loh... ^_^"

Tml still have to go work but heck lah... Tml go office then do my stuff... ^_^"

When I finally found out that I'm not dreaming, I can't help dreaming...
-ORiN

Back in Action... Yawnz!

I am back! hahaha... Had a rather fun and refreshing LTC... It's my first time being a GP coz the other times I am either GL or in the organizing committee. But one usual stuff, misundestandings and cock-ups again but I think it's not really my problem so I don't even care to take side. I think tml I going to skip work and rest at home... yawnz... Missed you guys except HuiZhen and Eunice bah coz everyday at camp oso see them... hahaha! Signing off to rest then go sleep liao...