Leaving...

Leaving for the F.O. Camp in a few hours... Hope things will work out eventually... It's kinda weird to see her crying and talking about 'life sucks...' but that theory is kinda true. Been downloading Friends off the Internet and all I can say is that I'm addicted and becoming a fan of it already. Just finished Season 1 an hour ago and it was so so so great! No wonder they can screen for 10 seasons. ^_^"

People tend to get stressed out when the even gets near. Somehow, I can feel it... Vincent getting a bit of edginess, the GLs KOing and becoming seh by the day... But I still hope things work out just fine! I am rational enough to not drag in emotional stuff into my work. Lets do the best for the camp!

ORiN outz...

No Moodz...

Basically is not much mood since yesterday but see HuiZheng and JingYing usually forget my problems liao... Both my super good daus/close frenz... HuiZheng, the damn good laughing machine/joker... JingYing, my eveready listener... Today end up no need to work coz Lester no time to sit in to train me but tml he sure can train me. So, I went club instead to do logistics stuff. Think I will be really busy when FO Camp starts. Hope I can cope well with my job...

Basically earned myself a cold shoulder for not knowing WHY which makes me moody, coz I need to think and think and think what the heck I did wrong. Can't be juz the 'a bit off' suaning at the photo taking session that caused her to storm off bahz... Vincent thought that I may be that final trigger to a series of bad stuff that happened to her bah coz her face that nite was kinda black black. Asked her okay anot, she juz nodded... So, I am suay to the core to step right on the cat's tail when a dozen others pissed it off liao... Then now I kena scratched and clawed by it... ^_^" What a metaphor... She hates cats...

She stormed off half way and I went after her. Chin San came after me and gave me a parting shot before he went into the mall. 'What did you do to her?' That's kinda triggered my moodiness bah. Kinda left me thinking which I still trying to find out desparately coz I dont think she's so easily pissed off after all that disturbing from Chin San. I am definitely not the worst bahz... What the... That parting shot even worse... Maybe it's coz since I know that Chin San wants to woo her then I a bit DiAo~!~ liao... Kinda finding fault with whatever he's doing when I normally will overlook those small details. I seem very emotion driven right? But I think when comes to work, I am quite critical leh. Perfectionist? Maybe...

So damn haiz sia... If lidat how am I going to talk to her about work stuff when what I am saying is not even going in... Sianz... Cant be I use my authority to step over her bah which I think it a bit of abuse of power though I dont like people carrying an attitude problem when working. It's like 'What the hell! This is work and you bring in personal stuff and emotions...', sure will affect efficiency 1 loh... Haiz... See how bahz... If cannot tahan liao then let Helen or KaiWei settle stuff with me... Meanwhile, I will juz ask someone else instead when I want answers.

ORiN outz...

Results...

Today is kinda happening. First, results are out for the exams and I passed all, but as usual, no distinctions. Then workwise yesterday was not too good coz my design brain like neber bring out. Nothing comes out, maybe coz was a bit seh. Today was much better, at least didn't disappoint myself. This weekend is going to be very, very busy coz Sat going back sch to buy equipments. Sun going to help WanYi format her computer. Tomorrow after work going meet club guys at 6.30pm for farewell dinner for the Year 3s. Coz after F.O. Camp the guys going Tekong liao so a bit boring liao...

I am tired... Going to sleep soon... Need it quite badly...

ORiN outz...

Heat...

The weather lately is so sucky. So warm, so hot and so humid... I don't like warm and humid weather at all, even if I am going to the beach. I like cloudy, cool and windy days, especially the type of weather before a storm or rain. Very windy, very cooling... I am not suited for warm weathers and my study room is worse, it's warm and stuffy nowadays. When I walk into my study, I can really feel the change in temperature! Kaoz... My papa finally went about cleaning the fan 'cooling' my study instead of gabbling when he's having his off days. ^_^" Think nowadays can communicate better with him liao bahz, coz I am drilling the idea of moving my computer into my room into his brain, must treat him better. hahaha!

5 days neber blog liao le coz I started working for Lester and it's tiring, don't have any mood to blog during that few days. Even JingYing sensed that I'm tired when I'm online. You're the best wor, lidat oso can sense it! I think I will rest and have fun during the camps bah... In the end, I neber go my class chalet coz F.O. Logistics got stuff to do. Then club need to clean up again. I got Eileen as my assistant coz YouWei is confirmed needed as a GL liao. (Nicez: Sorry lah! I oso don't want it to happen mah! Tried my best to prevent Vincent from robbing him liao le...) I found some time to get complete my future blog design as well as the pics. Hopefully, I can put them up soon...

Blogger changed their interface and layout liao and it looks so sucky loh. Kaoz... It now looks so kiddish and I have to change to the new style of posting liao. It's like taking a step backwards coz the old style of posting was better. Now, it simply sucks! I thinking of changing to a new host liao le, partly coz blogspot so popular, always kena leaked.

ORiN outz...

Shagged...

The tired feeling is back again... I am so so so tired after juz a day of work. Eh, should say is only half day of work. My brain kinda overloaded with information and techniques for doing web design now. Tml have to wake up at 7am to work at 9am. Meeting Tingz for lunch these days liao bah since we both working at Raffles Place. Nothing much to blog actually coz in my office only got myself of coz not much interaction with the world lah coz cannot use net all the time. You guys got time muz drop me a sms wor else I going to sianz to death or cold to death...

Going to sleep liao le... Tml still a long long day for me... Phew...

ORiN outz...

Weekend...

Yesterday went gramps place to fix computer for my cousins. Formatted their computer then cant get their Internet to work coz Shannon forgot her password... OMG! Then she gave me a 12 numbers long password. In the end I called Pacific Internet who said that their password policy is limit to 8 characters onli... Duhz... What the... Then the whole time we trying the wrong password loh. Then reset the password for her. After that went eat dinner with PeiPei before meeting up with Shannon and her bf, Wei Wen.

We went Outram for KTV! PeiPei's voice last time sound like Sun YanZi but now is like Fann Wong and Liang JingRu. hahaha! She's a veri good singer. Next week then meet her for lunch when she start work at Raffles Place. Last nite we sang till veri late, around 2+am lidat. By the time I reached home is about 4am liao le. Then today kena woke up by my fone again. It's the person who want to buy my hammies. He told me he reaching liao then I quickly go put my hammies into the portable cage loh. Sold all of the 2nd batch hammies and earned 8 bucks. Hope they find a good home with new owners!

Today went watch Troy with Tingz then neber go our old haunt, we went Bugis instead. Then she say today eat KFC, that makes it 4 days of fast food for me... hahaha! Then chit chat as we walked around before and after the show loh. Then explained to her about her upcoming computer loh coz she wants me to fix a computer for her. Then say I can stay in her hostel for 1-2 days to get it up for her... hahaha! Female hostel sia... hahaha! Later kena caught then I sure GG! hahaha!

Anyway, tml starting to work at InspireoMedia liao, going to meet Lester at 1.30pm at Lao Pat Sat. Having lunch with Tingz before that... Hope everything goes well for me... ^_^"

ORiN outz...

Stuffy~!~

It's god damn stuffy and warm these few nitez... Today neber go for training at Lester's place coz he busy so postponed. Then I went straight to school instead. Today's Eunice bday and she die die dont want to close her teary eyes. hahaha! So, hang the present behind her, wait for her to turn loh. Hope she likes the present bah. She asked to steal it for her so I decided that buying will be the better choice. hahaha!

Eunicez: Hope you enjoyed your bday wor... hahaha! You tmd dao & dao online loh. Got broadband like no use lidat... Next time dont find you chat liao le...

The stupid weather is knn hot. No wind or rain at all. My skin getting itchy somemore... I am someone who is afraid of excessive heat. So, turbo cannot tahan... I need my aircon and now thinking of moving my computer into my room for good. Better envirnment for me coz no need to be trapped in a room of warm and stuffy air. Tml going my gramps' place to help fix my cousins' computer then going KTV with PeiPei, PeiShan and her boyfren.

ORiN out...

Where's My Wind?

It's so damn warm again and I dont enjoy it a single bit. Where that hell is the wind? This afternoon go sch still so windy then suddenly back to heat and warmth again. Sianz½... Yesterday's interview quite okay but don't think I will get the job coz the other guy's results very good, got the As and ADs... Not like me, I only got a bunch of Bs and Cs.

Yesterday was at the Enrollment after my interview but kinda sianz... Went eat dinner with the Yr3s and KaiWei after everything ended. Today brought HuiZheng's Yugi VCDs to return her then pass my casualty summer tee to Nicez... She used it as a pillow during Enrollment... duhz... Everyone like veri shag, havent recover from the MC camp yet bah. After that went home with HuiZheng. Tml dont know if I got my training with Lester anot so see how loh. If nothing to do then go Enrollment else rot at home. ^_^"

Cant stand the stupid weather, think going to have a warm shower later. Today took out my Sun YanZi CD to listen and it's still as good as ever. That album was Kite. Got one of my favourites inside oso... My wisdom tooth was aching all nite coz one of the lower jaw ones start to grow liao... The gum a bit swollen up... Sianz½... Sat maybe going KTV with PeiPei and PeiShan & her bf then Sun going watch Troy with tingz... Then Monday I think need to start working liao le...

ORiN outage...

Freedom!

That's what I enjoy the most. Juz back from the MC Camp which is kinda tiring since it's right after the exams but I am still happy with it. As usual, everyone is super tired... The first day was kinda short for me since I only reached at 8+pm when the BBQ is about to start. Lester drove me there and shun bian briefed me on the expectations for me when working for him. Hope I am up to it! ^_^" The second day was the LOTR exhibition, it's damn cool. The effects so nice, though I kinda knew beforehand that almost everything is digitally created. XueFeng was so stunned coz she thought that the Helm's Deep scene is done with 10k extras... hahaha! I think most people is impressed when they saw the people creating the Shire on a piece of farmland in New Zealand... Damn cool hor?

After lunch went Science Centre walk walk a bit before I went back to the LOTR coz I havent finish the MovieWorld part which is the Makings of LOTR. Then saw Eunice with a long long chao ta face then pull her in then show up around to cheer her up loh. Then went to the special effects part then quite fun. I think she went a bit high on the paper animation and the 3D thrill ride. Then she told me what happened loh but nvm lah... She cheered up quite a bit after that... I think... ^_^" During exhibition, I asked her if she like the Evenstar necklace then she say go steal it for me lah... hahaha! Lame... It's a star leh... Wait till I die then shun bian pluck it down for her when I go up loh... ^_^"

Then went back to the MovieWorld to continue with my LOTR. Then oso had a bit of small talk here and there with Eunice and XueFeng oso lah... I chatty mah, cannot izzit? hahaha! Now feeling a bit hungry liao... hahaha! See how bah, maybe later go cook... ^_^" Tml still got a Interview at Kranji to go to. It's for my ITP then need to wear formal + tie... sianz... Tml I want to go club 1 leh... sianz rite? Think I juz fold up and take off my tie when I go find club pple loh... ^_^"

That's all liao le bah... I go sleep soon or maybe eat? hahaha! Outage...

Examz Ending...

One more paper left on Fri only which is NMA. It's 60% so muz pia a bit coz my test I didnt do too well, juz passed only so cannot slack. This sem hopefully dont have any Ds. ^_^" Fri after exam then going to start camp at nitez liao, got BBQ somemore. Then camp till Sun afternoon, after that got FO meeting. ^_^" Then Mon going Lester's office to work if not wrong, havent confirm anything with him yet coz he always neber reply my ICQ messages.

If can work then will have money to spend for the holidays liao. My computer will be in for some upgrades to keep it up to date and fast. ^_^" Preferably can upgrade the old old CPU which I bought back in Sec3 or Sec4, the monitor and replace the damn spoilt CD-RW. I thinking of changing to a LCD monitor so can write at my computer table without turning here and there. Even better is to move the computer into my room lah, then it will be fantastic liao le. ^_^"

These few days I playing a new game called Knight Online which I find quite fun and the graphics quite good oso. Then as usual, I watching my animes and latest videos will be the Sailor Moon Live Action. It's not an anime but a drama but real people. I find the Sailor Mars super chio and got character. The Sailor Moon simply not cute but act cute and not chio at all which is a letdown loh. Supposed to be the most chio of all then end up lidat. ^_^" The story quite nice lah coz it is following the anime with some modern twists.

That's all for tonite liao... ORiN out...

Why I kept quiet...

I have so much that I wanted to yelled out and yet I kept quiet. It juz seem that what I said don't get into their ears or wat. Quarreled with my mother coz I wake up then go my study to use computer. Great, whatever I do is wrong. Not hungry, I am forced to eat. What the... Still have my see the lian se of my 'elder' sis! What the fuck! When did I have an elder sis? I am simply boiled up inside. Stress, pressure... The sound of my heart giving way, cracking away...

They think I only use my computer, all the time in front of the computer. She ask for it then I muz immediately give it to her. She's ba dao... What I paid for with my hard earned money, I have to give her when she asked for it. What the FUCK is that? What I have been paying every month even when I am broke, she ask for it, I oso have to let her have her way. What the fuck! So what can I do? I think maybe it's time I cleared my stuff away and put them in my room... It's the only safer place in a place that people like to refer as my home but in reality, my home is my room, not the area outside...

I am pissed but what to do? Life had not been fair to me for a long time liao so juz continue with my life loh... I always have to get things through my own means after all. Hopefully once I earned enough from my holidays, I can filled up all my debts, get a new computer and table in my home. I even thought of taking my computer apart... It's weird rite? All my aunts felt that I shouldn't be paying my own bills coz I am schooling but look at JingYing. Who's worse... She even have to pay her school fees. I wonder when I will reach that level of independence... Maybe I can start it soon since my attachment is starting soon. Since she like is so much then let her have the computer all to herself coz I will take the broadband away, she can have that 56k. Maybe today my lunch and dinner, I can try to be independent? Cook noodles and add in some eggs, veggies or meat loh... Noodles and eggs seem a bit too often for me liao... Add some other stuff bah...

Sometimes I wondered why I kept quiet... Maybe it's coz whatever I say, I am always wrong... Wrong Wrong Wrong! Always wrong! Say what oso no use, waste of energy, wasteof saliva... I think it's time for Francis to leave the nest liao bah... I don't even think I actually belonged to that nest.

ORiN...

2 To Go! ^_^"

Yesterday's DEUI was simply fucked up. What many people went to contcentrate on did not even come out for a single questions. For me, I did not study at all till like 1pm loh. Damn slack but I think I don't really care about the principles in design bah. It's juz some theories that some 'reputable' big-shots came up with and said that all designs are based on them. Shit them... Isn't designing based on creativity? omg!

Juz now managed to confirm with Lester that I will be working for his company after the exams. Pay wise haven't confirm with him yet but working hours quite flexible since he's the boss. ^_^" I will be working full time from 9am - 6pm in a office. Not bad wor... ^_^" The office is in Raffles Place so ideal sia... Coz I chose to work in office rather than home, reason? My study dont have air-con, office sure will have... hahaha! ^_^"

Tue still got my IMKT paper which my lecturer told me to aim for A. ^_^" Not bad lah but I am fine with a B. hahaha! Updated my design slightly and moved the gallery link to the sidebar. Added Huizheng's blog as well as ShareConnector, which is my source for movies, softwares and games at the moment.

Outage...