Now I am certain it's not a crush...

I think I cooled down liao le. Today upset so many people because of my silly actions. Irene called me to talk about daerie juz now. Though it's a short conversation, I guess she's right after all bahz. I did it in a very, very bad way as daerie said. Maybe I need to go fan xing about it bahz... Irene suggested that I let her cool down a bit first before talking. I guess I will do just that bah, wait for her to cool down loh.

Going to sleep soon but notice that I posted like machine gun today. -_-" I hope you guys don't mind me grumbling so much. At least it's electronic screen mah, if it's paper then you guys will have a hard time liao le. Eyes a bit tired coz just down broke down a bit. Don't ask me why, it came pretty naturally, I guess.

Hope everything will work out fine for us...
-ORiN

Haiz...

I want to call her but got the message that phone number is not valid. Think have to try calling her room at 8pm liao le bahz... Even Irene oso cannot locate her... I am so worried... Near to tears again... Scroll through our past smses juz now... Thought I seriously let her down by my action. Can't I trust her more? But for now, I juz want her to be safe and sound... I don't care liao le... Juz bring my daerie back safe and sound...

Gloom...

Just reached home moments ago after loitering around Yishun for 2+ hrs. Heavy heart, gloomy sky, endless drizzle... Basically, she asked me to give her some time. Other than waiting, I don't know what else to think of. She sure hates me now... I think my jealousy is still not curbed even after that cold war with Eunice.

Just came up with an excuse and rushed to SP to find daerie... Don't know if I can still call her daerie anot or Iris or juz her... I waited for her outside her nxt class venue. She came and said give her more time. I don't know how to react so just waited outside. I kinda leaned against the wall, wind up and fell into a daze. By the time I realised it, she's gone liao le. Think she didn't notice me when she headed for the lift bah.

Eunice then came and talked a bit with her then I saw her far far away on the next building. I guess I am still quite good at anticipating where she is bah. We sat aside from each other then I passed her her comic and she passed me a sweet. My mood went up a bit then surged down after she said she's leaving sch. Dunno go where but will be home by 8pm. She left then I left after a while. Then wu yi zi jian saw her took out her fone to sms. I know I was wrong but people around me keep saying that she's wrong as well.

I don't know why. I found out the thingy about the fone call in the morning so obviously she don't have time to tell me yet mah. I know she will tell me when I met her de but somehow the knowledgement of the news was disturbing to me. So I went to tell her that I saw Baka's blog. Things kinda went pretty downhill from there.

Anyway, I went club for a while then went back to Yishun liao le. Loitered around in the drizzle then took bus to Yishun library. Dunno what to do so just take a book and read loh. 2 hrs of loitering, 2 hrs of her face, her words, the places we went, the past few days flashed through my mind. Don't know what's wrong with me but I took out the hp and smsed her. Don't know how to continue from here liao le... Tears welling up, I think. I thought I could tear after JunTing and here it goes again. I supposed I can only cry in the comforts of my room and bed bahz...

ORiN`rEgRets

I am JERK

She had enough to deal with liao and my possessiveness and jealously HAVE to act up again. Argh! I checked on her! Argh! Feeling weird all nite and this morning then I HAD to go do that. I fucked up...

Sha Gua...

That sha gua daerie of mine ar... Yesterday not feeling that well still want to come meet me and didn't even breathe a word about it until I saw her blog. Still say never spoil or qian jiu me... She came all the way from Bukit Batok loh!

Met her at Dhoby Ghaut then went PS watch Dodgeball. The show is damn funny loh! After that went to buy Milky Bars for my daerie and dearies but had to go Marsiling there to buy coz PS don't have the pure ones and the cookies ones contain eggs so XiaoZhen cannot take loh. Sent her home then went back but forgot to give her back her comic book that was in my sling bag. She wanted to come Yishun meet me this morning de but found out she not well in the morning then ask her to go sleep more loh. She's stubborn wor... hahaha! Must keep talking fast and very long then she settle for not coming down in the morning but will be going SP later after work to find them or should I say her?

Not much in the mood to blog that much after seeing the latest entry on her baka's blog. Seems like that baka said something to her on the fone last nite. I know I am being childish and stupid. Guess I am just too possessive le bah, get jealous so easily... Got to work on that more... She hasn't replied my sms since morning le... Weird... Maybe I am just thinking too much again. -_-"

ORiNz

Big Money Ahead?

Enough of talking and talking about my daerie liao, if not everyone here will become sianz de. My web hosting business don't have much activity at the moment and Lester sent me a sms last nite to ask me for the updated website. Currently talking to 2 webmasters about putting a banner ad on their website to cover the running cost of free hosting. I firgured out that if I can get like 10 clicks a day at US$0.05 per click. I will earn like US$15/mth per website which is a 1500% profit compared to the US$1/mth for the hosting which I will be providing for free. Hopefully, everything goes well and I will be earning stable money every month.

Yesterday, daerie say give me a surprise. It was her clothes, she wore skirt and a tanktop, I think. I not sure about what kinda top it is but it's nice lah. I think it's bad for me to make her come all the way from SP just to meet me and send her home hor? Friday I will go SP to fetch her from her Jap class. Today meeting her again but dunno if I should ask her to come Somerset from Bukit Batok loh. It's far for her after all and she always 'You happy, I happy' lidat, so qian jiu me... I feel so spoiled by her liao le... hahaha!

Anyway, to my dearies, thanks for being there for me all the time so now can rest a bit liao hor. Lao pa here can go fan someone else instead liao le. Got time will send you guys the milkybar de. hahaha!

To daerie, thanks for entering my life.

ORiN`b|iSs

Xin Fu...

It's been quite a long while since I am truly so happy le bahz... Now that I managed to fill out that void with daerie, my life kinda complete liao le. Can say I am happy, content and glad that I met someone like her, someone who can know what's going on in my brain, someone who's so understanding to the point of spoiling me liao le. hahaha!

Yesterday met up with daerie after work. Was a bit worried coz of her latest blog entry but cleared it up liao le. We took a photo card together wor but she say we wear till black black and the background oso dark so not that nice though I think it's quite good already. Maybe I simply reach the point that I totally adore her liao le loh. Some people advised me not to fall too deep but I am already right at the bottom liao. hahaha! What to do... I made my decision liao mah. ^_^"

Anyway, we walked walked a bit then sent her home liao le. Then I blur blur took the wrong train home. I neber sleep oso neber notice wor. hahaha! Reached YewTee then I realised I took wrong side... ^_^" Reached home then saw grandma got come over for dinner, went my room use computer. After that went to talk on the phone with daerie loh. Surfed while after packing her off to bed coz she say she won't sleep until she received the sms that I am going to turn in liao. -_-" Anyway, I like her as she is, maybe more as we go along and know her better...

ORiN`b|iSs

我一直存在着...

Yesterday feeling kinda sianz so didn't post a lot. Daerie might be coming over Somerset look for me after I knock off. Kinda secretly happy about meeting her... ^_^" I know that some people are concerned with me and her but I can only say that we will try to make it work out the way we want. For now, I juz want to protect her from her past... Maybe I juz adore her the way she is bahz... haha! Maybe fling was the intention in the beginning but as we build up to Friday, it seem kinda clear that it won't be a fling.

Anyway, lost my damn concession card so have to go make one today so now using my father's card. Damn *toot* loh... Think I have to go change my wallet liao le, the whole thingy is like coming apart here and there... That means my money again become allocated to maintaining me and my stuff liao le. What the... Other than my 1-dollar cow, I don't seem to have other savings liao wor though I really don't want to use my 1-dollar savings at all. Juz want to fill it and shake it once in a while. hahaha!

Received a sms from Irene last night about her grandpa's passing... It's always sad to hear someone passed on. Thinking of going to the wake but haven't discuss with daerie whether want to go together anot... Then thinking of asking out daerie on friday or weekend... See how loh... I might have to do my freelance. Hopefully, I can finish up JeryOnline.com and start getting business for me and jery. hahaha!

ORiNz

Turning Point...

Basically just wrote this post to let the viewers here know that I'm attached liao le. Where's the beau? My daerie is Iris, my yr1 Junior in SP. Some of you guys already know about it at the BBQ but make it known to all of u guys here loh. We kinda moved a bit fast but I think that's okay bahz. We juz need to slow down a bit loh coz now is the moving forward time liao le. I hope things last for her, for me, for us...

ORiN`|Ove

Congee & Porridge...

Lazy and keep forgetting to blog when I really wanted to. By the time I reached home from work, usually lose the mood to blog liao. Past 2 days juz mainly attachment, freelance, rot & slack loh... Nothing fancy, nothing much. The only one thing special is that I am hungrier than usual. ^_^" Can't blame me coz been eating congee and porridge everyday for most of my meals. That's not veri filling for me leh but the nite before mama fried me a scrambled egg to eat. haha! Last nite ate instant noodles with egg but the veggies I eat till siao lah. The stalks all so hard, eat till my mouth oso tired coz I not chewing the normal way.

Actually supposed to go catch Cinderalla Story with Iris on Mon or Wed but she cannot go home too late and don't have any good timings coz the movie is phrasing out this week liao le... Nowadays somehow chatted quite a lot with Iris, maybe coz we can click bah. She's Capri like WanYi and Tingz. haha! Now my closer groupie of frenz consist of the Capricornians and Taurians liao wor... Throw in a few of the other horoscopes and more or less complete liao le?

Yesterday discussed with Jery briefly about taking over part of his online web hosting business so more of less settled on taking over liao. The business can't earn much but definitely not much of a losing business since I will be the one doingthe business while he's the one bearing most of the costs. Technically, I am a free labor but I doing it more for fun?

Last nite got something special. Stacey lao po first time call me lao gong! hahaha... I thought something happened to her or wat wor coz I know she not the type who will do that. haha! But anyway, chatted a bit with her then continued with my web hosting research. Nothing much for now except Oscar bday celebration tml and CSCC's mooncake festival BBQ on Sat.

ORiNz

Braces: Done & Ouch!

Hmm... Did not blog for the past few days because I was lazy, just plain old lazy. Friday was okay and quite fun with the amount of photos taken. I had my braces done on Friday too. Till now, my mouth is feeling weird and I got a few ulcers coming up. Sianz½...

Friday went the Jurong East chinese resturant after I put on my braces to eat. I ate century egg congee while Iris ate their Chicken Noodles. She looked kinda pale when I met her coz she sick. Crapped a bit then walked back to MRT to take train back to sch but think she sick then hands no strength loh. Her handphone pouch flew onto the track when we boarding the train. Then asked her where she bought it so I led her out at Clementi to go BoonLay. Going Jurong Point's 77th Street to find another pouch for her. Managed to find a pouch that she liked then we walked walked a bit before we went to Pets' Station to look at puppies. hahaha! The pups there super active that day wor! Somehow they are caged in pairs in the same breeds. Got 2 ChiHuaHuas pups, 2 JackR pups , 2 Maltese and other pups. Then got a pup Iris say looks like the doggie she used to have but don't think the pup cared lah. It was busy chasing the bone in its mouth. Ben dan! haha!

Then we went back sch loh but she kinda drowsy because of the medicine so I juz held her hand and led her along loh. By the time we reached club, AGM about to start liao so go LT18B. It was quite a fun day wor. ZhiCheng too nervous during his speech and said 2 sentences in 5 words, "Today I am ZhiCheng." Then the whole LT burst out laughing, someone then said "Then tml you are what?". Pengz siaz... After AGM we played the usual catching in the dark then went back club liao. We took a lot of pics at the time before we left. hahaha! Then Iris wanted to go home but she's sick so I juz shout see who going North loh then Irene say let ZhenHui send her home loh. hahaha! After we left, I went dinner with XiaoZhen, JingYing, ZhiCheng and other yr1s. Eat until quite late then we went Tampines to take bus home.

Sat was so-so... Slept uneasily becuase of the braces then went my cousin's house to check on his computer but it was hopeless. Then went home basically stayed in front of my computer playing, chatting and downloading as usual. Sunday was home all day. In fact, my whole family oso at home so spent sometime with my family loh. Basically, spending some time is each of us in our room doing our own stuff. My mother do her mooncakes, I in my room or watch tv, my sis watch tv, in my room or her room and my father either in my sis room, his room or watching tv. Everyone doing his/her stuff, uz peacefully. Not too bad after all... haha!

ORiN outz

orinity.net.np?

Hmm... Surfing the web during work yesterday and saw that I can register a Nepalese domain name for free. orinity.net.np sounds rather nice wor... hahaha... I still not much time to update my webbie leh but I got the idea of making it more to the public than to juz my friends. Tributes to my current close frenz are of coz a muz lah... ^_^"

TheSmallPets.com now having revamp so I helping AC and GoOvi with it. Designed a new logo for them which I think not really up to my standard but they quite like it leh... haha... Then GoOvi wants to conference with me and AC on the revamp things coz AC is hosting the website on his own server which is like 400 bucks/month? It's damn expensive loh so I not agreeable on hosting it ourselves anymore. Think I will bring this up tonite bahz.

Tml going to put on my braces liao le then after that will go sch find Iris first then go eat. She going to pei me eat. We same frequency siaz. No wonder she's JY's dau... hahaha! She was thinking of wearing tube that day and I oso thinking of getting her to wear the tube that she said will display her figure. hahaha! I know, we are lame...

After tml will be porridge for 1-2 weeks liao le but it's for the sake of straight teeth. I am a bit metrosexual, so what? hahaha!

ORiN outz...

Stella Rhapsody...

Bought Stella's album today during my lunch break. hahaha! But earphones spoilt liao le so cannot listen loh. Nvm, I listening to it now on my computer. hehe... Today after work went Lester's office to collect payment for 3 of my small jobs, about 80 bucks in total. Feeling kinda tired at the moment... yawnz...

Shagged as usually so going sleep in a big liao le loh... After this and my usual reading then going to go sleep liao le...

-ORiN of ORiNity

Bad Day...

Yesterday was going quite okay until I reached my dreadful home. My mother started picking on me again... Argh! I am 19 years old and I cannot even make a decision on when I want to fix my cousin's computer. Already confirmed with my cousin that I going over on Sat and she keep insisting that I go during weekdays, before Friday. I refused and she threatened to not pay for my braces downpayment first. Think I better come up with some back ups in case, she went on her madness again...

Slept real early last nite coz my right eye somehow feel a bit swollen, like kena boxed right in the eye. hahaha! Fell asleep by 8+pm liao le then woke up at 4am. *toot* Then use my computer and saw ZhiCheng online, chionging his report... hahaha! Last min wor...

Today muz remember to go transfer funds to LiZhuang's acc for Oscar's bday present. Then need to do my web design work for Lester again. I hated it when he don't give me a deadline... No deadline then I nua all the way then when he asked for it, I haven't do much at all. Sianz½...

Backie...

Back from a fun weekend! Extracted 2 more teeth on Fri before heading to NTU to find tingz. Her computer kena some viruses and her fren uninstalled the firewall. Worse, that guy did not replace with another firewall. Pengz... That really open my eyes about the level of technical know-how of NTU's cream of the crop Computer Engineering students, or should I say undergraduate? haha! That's good for me in the future if I stay updated on my PC maintanence know-how loh. Anwyay, fixed her computer while she do her homework loh. Kinda weird at first coz it's like the first time, there's no chattering between us. Mainly coz my gum was numb and I was still bleeding from my teeth extraction.

Finished my job then went off to sch to see Iris for her to prove that she got figure and is not flated chested. hahaha! After that went to club loh and Haohao was there with a few yr2s. Went home at around 6-7pm with Haohao and Youwei. Kinda fun chatting with them about tech gadgets on the MRT.

Sat went to sch for their event for inactive club members. Motive was good but result was not quite there yet but good nevertheless. Had a bit of fun loitering around and watching Iris fight with Chin Sun and kena a bump in the head and shin. We thought she crying when she covered her forehead wor... hahaha! Then Chin Sun rubbed her blue black and she grabbed my arm like she going to die lidat. My veins started to pop out loh... haha... After that went home with XiaoZhen, Maria and Youwei as usual. All fall asleep wor... hahaha! Reached Yishun liao then go do shopping with XiaoZhen for choco for her bro and sent her home as usual loh. We reached the bball court and stopped for a while loh. Super a lot of stars that nite! She counted 10 at least... Went online and chatted a bit with ZhiCheng abt club and welfare loh. Meeting him before and after AGM to tell him about my views on Welfare and my piece of welfare history... hahaha! Going to talk to him abt the welfare follow-up with the inactive members bah.

Sun is juz rot, slack and laze... hahaha! Played MU Online a bit, read my favourite novels a bit and watch shows on my computer a bit. Basically juz relaxing myself at home loh... hahaha! So shuang wor... hahaha! Only thing that startle my routine was the alarm planted in my fone by tingz... hahaha! She planted that alarm to remind me to do some lobang searching for her... Pengz... Seem like I am really helpless towards this gerger of mine wor... hahaha

That's all for now and long enough liao le bah. I know you guys don't read the grumblings as often liao but do start from where you left off the last time wor... I will be glad if you do that... hahaha! Till then... ORiNz

Words...

One of the songs I like when I was younger. For those few who had been crying recently, you know who you are, don't need me to pin point...

Smile, an ever-lasting smile...
A smile can bring you near to me...
Don't ever let me find you gone...
Coz that would bring a tear to me...

This world, has lost its glory...
Let's start a brand new story...
Now, my love...

Right now, there'll be no other time...
And I can show you why, my love...

Talk in ever-lasting words...
And dedicate them all to me...
And I, will give you all my life...
I'm here if you should call to me...

You think, that I don't even mean...
A single word I say...

It's only words...
And words are all I have...
To take your heart away

You think, that I don't even mean...
A single word I say...

It's only words...
And words are all I have...
To take your heart away...

It's only words...
And words are all I have...
To take your heart away...

It's only words...
And words are all I have...
To take your heart away...

ORiNz...

我们欢呼, 我们歌唱...

hahaha... Juz now scrolling through the archives. Saw the entry on the Pri Sch gathering and the primary school song start ringing through my mind liao. It's such a nice song loh and somehow my pri sch song is in Chinese de. Maybe coz my pri sch was a Chinese sch bahz...

Juz gave the URL to this place to XueFeng Maria... One more person into my private circles of grumblings liao le. Last nite slept quite late so damn sleepy at the moment. Sianzation... Friday is coming and that's 2 more teeth coming out. Wondering how am I going to eat beef with holes on both side of my jaws. Porridge liao le, I think...

Got time then come update again...

-ORiN of ORiNity

After a long absence...

Hmm... I think I kinda keep giving bloggin a pass since the last post. Growing lazier and lazier liao le hor? Actually it is due to me being shagger and shagger lah... hahaha! Crap! I am fine, quite healthy and exercising again. So long neber do push ups and lift dumbbells liao le so past few days quite sore after that. I will juz summarize this weekend bah, coz lazy to dig into my brain.

Friday went to do my 1st extraction of my teeth. Both teeth were on my right. First time see dentist use reusable syringe wor and she gave me 9 shots of it. Duhz... Drank too much milk in the past liao le coz dentist say I drink milk then teeth veri strong. Can see that she had a super hard time pulling my teeth out. hahaha! In the end, it was bleeding quite jialat but I insisted on going back sch to visit Ying and Zhen.

Sat went back sch in the afternoon to help Zhen paint the AGM banners. Turned out to be quite fun lah but after a while went to talk to the stoning Maria. I thought she was going to turn back into a rock at that moment. Lame me... hahaha! Then played my CD and juz listen to the songs and HaoHao crapping and disturbing of the freshies loh. After that went dinner with Northlanders and some freshies. Reached home to start moving my computer into my room. I don't know that my small cupboard is as light as it looks wor. By the time I finished, it's around 1+am liao le then surf a bit then go sleep liao le...

Sun was the best day of the weekend le. Woke up and climbed into my cosy armchair and played a bit before I go Yishun MRT to pick up JingYing XueFeng... Both late! Duhz... See what I mean when I say being early is no use? Whenever I come early, pple will still be late so it's better to be a bit late. hahaha! Anyway, XiaoZhen joined us after she came back from the market. Watched the last 10 eps of Dear Boys. That 10 eps were very exciting wor, even for me who already watched it once liao le. Still can blood-stirring as the last time. hahaha! I think it is time to burn Dear Boys into my CD-Rs for safekeeping liao le. hahaha! After that we watched 'I am Sam' by XueFeng's request. It's a rerun for me but still as tear-jerking for me bah though no tear actually come out. The same cannot be said for XueFeng who flowed like a small river? hahaha! It's a touching show after all and it's a definite classic for me. To be stored in my computer for runs after runs. ^_^"

After they all left, I went to tidy my room a bit then start doing my web design again coz Lester set a 10.30pm deadline for me though I didn't manage to finish the 1st design. 2nd design don't need much changes so I completed that and sent it to him. Will be doing the 1st design tonite bah and hopefully got enough inspiration to do a good job. Creativity is juz something that comes and goes for me. Duhz...

Today at work still as sianzation as usual loh. Tonite most prob need to go my room to write my logbook so tml can let ML sign liao le loh. Quite a few things to do tonite siaz... Wonder if I can really finish them up. hahaha! And guess what? I managed to keep typing for the past 20min without even a sign of stopping wor. Power!

Thinking of giving XueFeng access to this place coz she's been a good fren and she definitely got a super big heart to tahan all my suanings. Tonite got see her then give her the URL to this sacred and secret world of mine where the grumblings echoes on and on for the past yr or so. This week is their holidays so maybe I can see more of them online to chat with me hor? Hope so, hope so...

-ORiN of ORiNity...